thoughts

It is easy to say it wasn't meant to be it is easy to say there will be things that will always be It is easy to say time will be healing and paving the way but it is very difficult to deal with this single loss in a day. It is easy to say that the pain will subside it is easy to say that time will abide it is easy to say things will happen for the best but it is very difficult to pass this test. It is easy to say it is not going to be easy it is easy to say you will win over this adversary it is easy to say you will live to have another say but it is very difficult to deal with this single loss in a day.

For a moment you can forget about me, but I have to live with myself however difficult it may be, I have to keep on living to believe there are better days ahead, I have to keep on breathing to see how things will turn out to be, It is difficult to be with myself all the time, It is difficult to not remember when I thought of putting on a disguise. But now the answer is very clear to me, Things will get better and better and to this I know time will see, I have a new lease on life I know, Thanks to the one I thought would not show, To lift me up and help me pass the test, In God I trust and his hands I put my life as it will turn out for the best .

I have been what I was but I will be what you want, I did what I wanted to do and felt the way was to confront, But after what I went through, after what you made me feel, I found another reason to love you. I am immature at times but I love the way you say, I love the way you sort it out despite my moods that sway, I felt that there was no support and that I was alone, I felt that you would not understand me, But oh...i was so so wrong. I am at bliss when I know you're there, To hold me if I fall, to give me the love I want, To give me the satisfaction of having it all. I have found the one that I know, Will love me to his best, to guide me and to protect me always, Never to put me to the test. I have another reason to love you more, The place you have in my heart, A warm fire to fill my nights, a loving smile for my day to start.

Whatever exists today, Is history for tomorrow. Life that has been lived our way, Should be remembered without any sorrow. Feeling that once flew high,  Have been captured and imprisoned in our mind. Life that we have lived, Life that we hope to live, It's an illusion of thyself. It's a pool of water, It shimmers and shines with the ripples as they whine, And finally disappear into the blue, How very few, understood and knew.

I have my soul shattered Broken into a billion pieces Into the oblivion of tattered. I feel I am being pushed into an abyss So dark and deep so mean and so tireless delving deeper into the scars of the heart pulling the strings..not feeling any distraught. The first time I feel I will not be able to survive The first time I feel that this pain will never subside The first time I feel I will not be able to heal I know I am looking for answers that cannot be sealed. I am looking for the force that has guided me I am seeking the light that has surrounded me But this time I feel its not coming my way I am lost and I feel that its time now for me to pay.

As time went by, I thought like any optimist that things would get better. Someday, things would surely improve. However, life has an interesting if not cruel way of reminding you that what goes around comes around. Things that I thought I had overcome in the past, have comeback to haunt me, again. I feel I am back to square one. But this time round, rather than feeling sorry for myself, I have decided to do take things and decisions in my own hands. If you don't take control of your life, life takes control of you. If you don't take decisions, life will take them for you, whether you like them or not. So rather than letting something else guide my destiny or letting something else rule my being, I wish to take charge and move forward. Back then, I would look for acknowledgement and approval but today I don't. I know that I am right, I know that I am capable enough of doing things on my own. So why should I hold back and feel bad for myself? Each day in our life, presents...